TOPAZ HORIZON

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Life these days has been pretty strange. Eventful. Too eventful, in fact. It's a bit sad I haven't had any real time to actually type down my thoughts here as the events happen. At the same time, it's best I also didn't do so. Now that things have settled down a bit, I have a different perspective on certain things. And also things are still unfolding so I don't really want to have an opinion on anything yet. I am in wait-and-see mode.

So what are these "things"? Oh, aside from Gandalf dying so unexpectedly (we're still sad), there's the career front for both Vince and me (it's been very very interesting lately), the expenses for the wedding and the house (oh my God!), my evolving thoughts on motherhood (nope, I still don't want to be a mom and I'm relieved Vince isn't so hot on becoming a dad either yet there's a big change: We are open to the idea that parenthood may be an option), and oh other things. Lots. But it's all good. Life happens.

Anyway, the wedding's full speed ahead! Everything's pretty much okay except that the church flowers and papa's suit haven't been paid for. I still have to buy shoes for my flower girls. We haven't found a necktie for Vince. The misalette has to be approved by Fr. Dacanay and then I'll have to print out a hundred copies of that. Vince has to get a haircut, I have to get my hair colored. Oooh, lots of things still to do! But I'm cool.

I'm amazed (and so is everybody else!) at how relaxed I am about this wedding. That's because weddings are the silliest, most expensive affairs. So I just can't get stressed about something so inane. I just want it over and done with. I'll be happiest when it's all over. I am so looking forward to becoming a wife but I just hate this bride business!