Sunday, August 02, 2009

Sick in bed

Had tons of plans for this weekend but I woke up yesterday morning with a bad cough, a fever and a headache. I'm monitoring my condition and hoping it isn't that dreaded flu. I feel better now--still coughing but my fever's down and I don't have the other symptoms of A(H1N1) so this must just be a respiratory infection.

I did start thinking about death. Well, since Mama died, I've been pretty obsessed with dying. I told my blogger friend Kaith that I'm prepared to die--I've accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior, told Vince I love him forever and always, I've bought long-term life insurance, all my debts are paid, and all my undies are washed. Yes, I have a fear of leaving my underwear unwashed. This is my mother's fault--she told me a lady should never let herself get caught with dirty undies. True to what she said, before Mama died, she washed all her undies!

When I die, I want to be in a simple wooden coffin and I'll wear a chic skirt suit--preferably Chanel, in cream or pale pink. And pearls. I want all my mourners to wear black, with big black sunglasses, carrying black umbrellas. Very somber and very stylish! At Mama's funeral, we all wore white (see below)--it's not very fash-yon. I want to be buried but Vince says he prefers cremation so I guess that's his decision to make.

That's me, my sister Jacqui, my cousin Iza and my sister-in-law
Rose hamming it up for the cameras


Since I don't have a Chanel suit yet, I'm not ready to die yet! Besides, I still have a lot of things to do:
  • publish a book or two
  • host my own TV show
  • see Paris, the Scottish Highlands, New York and Tokyo
  • design shoes
  • meet Stephen King
  • see all of Jan Vermeer's paintings
  • grow old with Vince
I do want to say that being prepared to die makes me not afraid of death. I am secure in the knowledge that I'm going to a better place, I'll see Mama again, and I know my loved ones will be taken care of. And finally meeting God is a cool thing to look forward to. I have sooooo many questions to ask Him!

5 comments:

  1. awwww...
    well,since you are feeling better then that's good..

    most people are afraid of talking about death, but death is just part of life,right?
    we live & we die..

    i guess the thing that's scary is that we don't know when it is...

    ps:
    natawa ko dun sa undies part
    XD

    hope you'll feel better asap,girl!
    ^_^

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  2. Ya, death is an escape, a release so it's supposed to be a relief. What is scary about it is when or how. For example, I don't want to die ugly (meaning murdered or gruesome accident). But who's to say? I'm going to pray really hard for a happy death--Cory Aquino's prayer is really beautiful.

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  3. about the undies thing, i'm careful with what i wear everyday, even when sleeping because gah, i don't want to die wearing an ugly and ratty underwear. hahaha.

    me too, i'd like to wear something pastel when i die. but i'd want my family and friends to wear white, baliktad tayo. hehe. but yes, let's not die yet. we still have so much to accomplish! :)

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  4. HOY don't die on me :p

    Ooh... I'd also love to finally meet God and ask him all those science questions: like the time of the dinosaurs, what the universe is exactly like, the pyramids, and so forth ;)

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  5. Kaith, oh my--I'm like that, too! Mama also instilled that in me--always wear nice underwear so that if you get into an accident or die, you won't be embarrassed (like it matters!).

    Neighbor, don't worry--I won't die on you, God-willing. Me, too! It's science stuff I want answered--like are there other living things out there in the vast universe?

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