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My kids asked me today what 2009 was like. It wasn't really because they were thinking of writing a blog post about the decade (that would be me). They were talking about life before they were around and wondering what kind of horrible life that must've been for Vince and me. Haha my kids. So full of themselves.

Funnily enough, they were kinda right - it was horrible the year before they came into our life. It's not funny, of course, because 2009 was breathtaking in its horror. The months before that, in late 2008, my mother had suddenly died and then my wallet got stolen so I was still reeling. Then 2009 greeted us with the news that Vince's baby, the tech magazine T3, was getting the axe. Vince was beyond devastated. It was the end of a happy career and he had a very hard time coping. I couldn't comfort him, however, because I was still dealing with Mama's death and fighting the credit card charges. 

We sold our pickup truck and that was another thing I cried about but it was nice to have money again after we dealt with the financial blows of Mama's death and the credit card theft. That year didn't get any better as rumors of other magazines getting killed off, including mine, celebrity title OK!, set everyone on edge.

Our baby bunny

To make things worse, our dearest rabbit Galady got sick in August and deteriorated rapidly. Our days were filled with caring for a poor, disabled bunny that we'd rather see sick than dead. But the inevitable happened and she crossed over the Rainbow Bridge right after my birthday in November. Vince and I were inconsolable.

Then I was offered the dazzling opportunity to become editor in chief of the much bigger and more prestigious title, Good Housekeeping. The big bosses at Hearst over at NYC talked to me, loved me and my work, and offered me the job. I agonized for weeks because I loved OK! and my staff so so so much. Finally, I said no to Good Housekeeping (and the big raise) to continue doing what I truly loved but I knew I disappointed people and that felt heavy.

I was so sad and stressed out all of 2009 that I would forget taking my birth control pills off-and-on. Finally, all that forgetfulness resulted in my period not making its monthly visit in December. I thought it was the stress but it turned out I was pregnant.

I was pregnant!!!

And for that alone, I can never really say that 2009 was a bad year. All that horror culminated in a new life and what a gloriously happy life it has been! Ten years of absolute joy.

So when my kids asked about the year before they came into our life, I said, "Well, I missed my mama very much, your Papa lost his dream job, and our beloved bunny wabbit Galady died. But it turned out to be such a great year after all because I became pregnant with Vito."

"Yeah, Papa said I'm your lucky charm," Vito grinned.

"You're more than our good luck, kiddo," I said. "You're the life that ended all the sadness and deaths. That's why your name means life."

I keep remembering this verse when I think of Vito: "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new." 2 Corinthians 5:17. Old things have passed away. All things have become new. And, oh, how new and oh so wonderful!

Our baby boys

How amazing that I can look back on that year and be thankful for it. Life has its good and bad but I know, no matter what happens, I'll always think it was a good life because my dreams came true, I married my great love, and we had our three boys. So incredible!

If you're in a dark place right now, my friend, hold fast. It's going to be all right. You just need to believe it and keep going. God bless you!